To my Life

To that sound in the night,
That light so bright,
To the everglowing heart,
Although not so smart,
To the abridged romances,
To the cold glances,
To the criticizing remarks,
To the everflowing sparks,
To the staged performances,
To the half eaten forbiden fruit,
To the wine undrinked,
To the broken mirror,
To the very hot summers,
To the shades never found,
To the causes unfollowed,
To the inconsistant luck,
To the love being replaced by hate,
To the life althought not so happy,
yet still great,
I dedicate these words,
I don't care anymore.

Again..my heart

Again I break my own heart by thinking this time will be different. He is just like others. He does not want responsibilities..not even dating. I knew it from the start yet decided to go through with it. Now again I am left alone. In my mind and heart I don't feel ok. I cried today just thinking what a mess I keep getting myself into. I will never be in love if I go on like this. If I keep running from the good ones into the arms of the bad. I should check my intentions, my aspirations and my hopes. It no longer matters what my heart feels because it always beats for the wrong one. Each time I should check my pulse for irregular heartbeats. Not everytime someone will rescue me. I am just so fed up. I am going to change.. a much needed one. I will seek those who seek me. I will want those who want me. I will think of them..feel for them. May be its not too late.